There is so much I want to say, but I honestly don’t know how to go about saying it so I’ll give it a go. I’m thankful for everyone in my life, and the friendships that I have had. Without that I wouldn’t be who I am today. But lately I feel like the majority of the people I associate myself with are so uptight and just wrong for me. Don’t get my wrong, I am so grateful for a handful of people who are nothing like this, who’ve stuck by me through everything and/or are just plain genuine friends but I’ve gone through so many groups of friends and it seems like when I move on and find new people who aren’t bat shit crazy I end up falling into the same groove as before. Is it so much to ask for a friend or two who is able to take my humor or have a decent conversation with? Who will just sit around with me, watch movies and do dumb shit. I also find that the nicer I am to people the more they think they can take advantage of that. No. It doesn’t work that way. I am a very thoughtful person and I am there for my friends at any time, whenever they need me. I never judge people. You are who you are and thats fine by me. But, that doesn’t mean you have the right to be absolutely repulsive towards me and only act like my friend when its convenient for you. I may be nice but I am unbelievably strong minded, stubborn and I’ll speak my mind no matter how blunt it is. You want to talk shit about me or stab me in the back? Fine, go right ahead. But when your life becomes a downward spiral again don’t expect me to be there to catch you. Friendship goes both ways.